puff ! hilang la ia :)

dah brape taun hidup , aku br sedar .. aku akn hilang dlm dunia aku bila diberikn photoshop . bukannya pandai pun , tp mmg ske explore . aku akn diam berjam jam , which is mmg aku ssh tuk diam , tp akn diam bila tgh edit benda . hanya berbekalkan hot chocolate , dunhill , dan lagu . diam la saya disitu . hehe

right now , im with my bf and sister kt restaurant kitorg . aku kt luar tgh buat hal aku and drg kt dlm tgh main pool .

kadang2 aku terfikir jgk untuk jd designer , tp ilmu xcukup . nk jd chef , masak bila tension je . nak kd photographer , xpandai mlukis . nak jd penasihat psychology , belum cukup pengalaman hidup . nak jd apa ek ? jd manusia pun susah . blum cukup falsafah hidup . jd pengkritik laa . itu kan sifat semula jadi :)

kalu hidup nih senang mcm main photoshop kan senang . bley tekan ctrl+z bila silap . kan ? kan ?

hilang

jangan kau pernah tanya kenapa ,
hati ini bukan untuk mu.
jangan kau pernah dengar suara ,
suara sumbang yg menyelubungi mu .

bawalah aku bersama ,
tinggalkan segala duka ,
menyepi kita berdua .
tinggallah dunia fana yg penuh nostalgia .

jangan pernah kau bertanya ,
lupakan saja dimana hilangnya

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from now on , my blog will be no longer private . so , obviously the story about me will be lesser than ever :)

the story of us

its a movie actually . by Rob Reiner film . a movie about married cpl who unfortunately discover that they were not meant for each other . after 15 yrs , after 2 kids of their own . what a sad thing to discover right ?

the story mostly about how they pretend that they are fine by being a total different person infront of their kids . well , bad news for you dumb ass , any kids will sense their parents problem or changes . they have been living with you since the day they were born remember ?

mostly , they are living in a lie the whole time . they rarely talk about the problem since the day they are been living in the different house . they just spending their day with a bunch of pathetic idiots that they called friends . those idiots who have no idea of what they have been through yet they talked about it , they criticize it and made their own assumptions .to them , love is only about having sex each and every night .come on people , if u know nothing bout it , stop talking bout it. you guys just make things even worst man. i strictly disagree with the concept of telling the whole wide world what your problems are . i mean , its about you and your partner . its private ! ok2 , lets get back to the story .


so .. as far as i concern , they broke up just because they didnt feel like they belong to each other . arguing about almost everything , blaming each other on the break up thingy and yet they regret it every time they hook up again . but that's the thing . they hook up , break up , hook up again , and break up again . they are just keep on repeating the same old mistakes that they are aware of . whats wrong with you guys ? spending their nights staring at their pictures , remembering all those happy and valuable moments of theirs , romantic things that they used to do , those argument that they have before they fall asleep .


its all about fear . two people stay together because they terrified . fear loneliness , fear failure , fear the unknown . that is the main motivative for everything . fear and guilt are the two emotions that keep the society humming . if you are looking for a clear cut answer , you will never get it . in real life there is no clear cut answers . life .. is gray . for example , an ass is not really an ass . it may seem as an ass to you but in reality , there is no ass . it is just a fatty part at the top of each leg that just so happens to be buttered up together , hence the word butt . so , its all illusion . there is no such thing as an ass . just like there is no such thing as a perfect marriage , the perfect job ,the perfect child , all illusion of staying together and living happily ever after . its all illusions . can you see the similarities between love , having a perfect marriage and the butt story ? according to the one of the actor in the movie , love .. is just lost in the sky . oh i tell you , this guy is so positive . good for him tho . isnt it ?

even though at the end of the story they get back together , its clear enough that they are just missing the old days . missing those memories they have . they are just depending on what they have . they are just used of being together . the promises that they made on their wedding day . do you , take him for better or for worst till death do us apart . what happened to that ? and .. what actually do they meant when they said 'i love you' to each other ? i mean , come on you guys .. you have been tru it together for a long time . isnt its worth dealing for ? they are just being ego . cursing each other would made their day i guess. well , i've been in that kind of situation before . being curse , arguing for a small things , cheating , and hoping that someday somehow he will realize how much i loved him and somehow he will change . BUT , its not worth it at all . ok , seriously i have to control my emotion when i watched this movie . sometimes i just like , urghhhh . come on ppl . just kiss and make out . literally . hehe . ok2 , stop crapping around .


urghh , i just cant help it . its so much to talk about . so much to comment . or maybe , i will just leave it to you to comment the rest of the movie :)










oh , how i miss watching action movies

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what is love means to u ?

dr kecik kita di ajar , di didik dgn perkataan cinta . love .. sama ada dlm movie , verbally , or non verbal communication . something like , if u nk bahagia .. u need love , share the love and so on . tp sbenarnya ada org explain tak kt kita apa itu cinta ? i dont think so . maybe , for some ppl , they hv their own theory or pemahaman sendiri pasal benda nih . well , for me .. still cant find d exact word or explaination for it .

to them , love is something they need to feel alive . when u love someone , u will do anything to make her/his happy . u will change anything or everything bout urself just to fit in with his/her life . u would sacrifice everything .. u would even die for the one u loves .

this is the concept of love . u can apply it to anything , anyone u love actually . ur partner , so called soul mate . ur family , frens , work , studies , even to ur pets ..

well , to me .. sacrifice urself for ur so called soul mate isnt worth it at all . coz once u are really into it , love .. u will lost ur common sense of everything .