Sunday, June 19, 2011

bila semua rs mcm palat

aku bukan blog untuk duit .
bukan juga untuk popularity .
dan semestinya bukan untuk simpati .

aku menulis untuk ketenangan jiwa
aku bercerita suka dan duka


tgh dgr lagu Automatic loveletter , sila google .lagu nih ade 1001 kenangan .
kenangan dekat pool matahari , kenangan melalak dlm kreta . kenagan berkaraoke smbl record video . mcm2 la .

i dont know why i cll this lagu2 ketenangan . kenangan itu tidak menenangkn lansung . peristiwa itu menyakitkan bila jd kenangan . hate it .

post ini bukan psl kenangan sbenarnya . sudah tersasar .

perempuan ada hari yg dia akn diam . mcm aku skrg . mls nk bercakap . bye2

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

nothing much

i just notice that im fucking bz with asgmnts . my previous asgmnt on collage made my thumb go biru . really hope its worth it . if u ask me what hv i learn through out this 1 month in ucsi i would say , i need to go to Greek and vanish all those philosophies that they hv been believing or using all this while . haha . manyak pening woo .

my bz life with asgmnts made me forget bout others . biaq p drg la nk buat apa pun . hati dah terluka sgt . pedih . tp trima lah hakikat . mcm ni lah hidup . stage 1 , umur 18 , a couple of frens bla . stage 2 , 22 yrs old , another set of frens chiow . stage 3 , i wonder sape lg yg tinggal .

having a hectic life membuatkn adanya mimpi ngeri . lately nih byk mimpi mengarut . well , its fun tho . xde lah tido bosan sgt .

i tried to be positive . i tried to stay positive . but im just a normal human being . jgn mintak aku je yg kne bg kau semangat . dont be selfish dear .

sometimes , i wondered how they are . are they just fine without me ? or they misses me as much as i do . do they feel lonely and lost without me ? or they are enjoying their life more than they are with me ? sometimes i just wish i had the guts to confront . sometimes i just wish i had the ability to be invisible and stalk them . sometimes i just wish they call me n tell me that they're screwed up because im not there . they needed me as much as i needed them .

hey guys , im 22 . spatutnye dah ade degree kt tangan . or maybe tinggal stgh taun lg . im 22 . spatutnye dah ade future husband yg stable enough untuk kawin lg 2 taun . come on man , im 22 . should be able to hv my own FREEDOM ! im 22 for god sake , should be able to differentiate btween a good fren , bestfren, someone u know n someone u used to know . hey , im 22 . i should be enjoying my teenage life u dumbass !










peace