truth is , i miss you

why are u in a hurry ?
i just met u.
why are u leaving ?
there's always a little something .

i dreamt of u last night . its so weird . i swear i didnt think of u when i was about to sleep . in my dream , u looked so sad . u looked helpless . i help u even though u left me . but when u are back on the right track , u left me . again . why ?

but that wasnt my main point . i almost cried when i see u are lost , helpless . whats wrong actually ? did anyone hurt ur feeling like u did to me ? did someone hit u with their lies ? did someone left u when u are asleep ? tell me .

(i almost cry now)

i was happy tho when u came to my dream . i admit that i miss u . i think about u alot . but not last night . not the night that everything went well . not the night when i was exhausted . so seriously , whats up with u ?

(i paused for about 30mins , i almost cried . im in the UCSI's library and there's a stranger sit right infront of me. damn)

its been a long time since i dreamt of u . i need to move on . its not because i want to , i have to . it sucks when u are not around . it sucks when i came home and there's no one to sleep with . there's no one who i can turn to when im down . there's no one who will look me in my eyes and tell me that everything's gonna be alright . tell me that they are not worth my tears .

u promised u will always be there for me .
u promised me that u will never leave me alone .
u promised me that it only be the two of us .
until the end of the world .
















how are you ?
how's life ?

with all my heart , i miss u so much .

hye my lil blogy . i miss u so much ! mwah mwah . sorry for neglected u lately . see , im with someone now . so its kinda hard to write something without involving my personal life . its not that i dont want to share , but if its something that hs to do with him , i would keep it safe with me .

but dont worry . im still me . i wont write the whole blog using just one language . thats the power of rojak yo ! haha . im fucking blur and kinda bored right now . still in Uni , waiting for the Performing Arts Guild's meeting at 5pm -_-' . need to write a play for the international women day but i've donr nothing yet ! story line , checked ! laptop , checked ! microsoft word , checked ! but then , that's it ! i dont know how to start , what's the proper format for it . should i include the songs and the dialogue too ? urghhh . this is madness !

last friday sukhbir (the president of PAG) as me why did i join PAG . i said i join this club because i was helping a friend of mine , carmen . i lied . the truth is , i just want to have the feeling of being accepted by ppl here . its been almost a year n i dont have a single friend who i can spend time with . its not about being famous or anything , i just need a friend who i can turn to when i hv difficulty with the subjects and what not . a friend who i can go lunch with . a friend that will study together for our finals . gahhhhh . ok now i sounds desperate attention whore . damn girl

actually , i do have a topic for my blog today but as i continue writing with my meaningless stories , it disappear . vanish . pufff .

eh wait . what happen to bahasa rojak ? damn u ucsi . damn u . (ok , takde kena mengena pun).
dr atas nih boleh nmpk tangki air yg sgt besar . boleh nmpk air dia . rs mcm nk terjun je . aiyak . need to sleep a.s.a.p . but then ,tak brapa nak sanggup tuk redah jem hrnih . so akn ku melepakkan diri di salah satu kedai sambil buat asgmnt and dinner . grrrr . duit melayang lg .

dok mengarut kt sini tgk2 lg 30 minit je lg meeting . tp drg confirm akn dtg lmbt . tp better pegi now . nak gie refill air lg . but no worries my darling . will get back to u as soon as possible . mwah mwahhhhx 1