we have been bestfriend for a very long time. we have been planning things together since then. we have been through ups and downs together. u were the only one who has faith in me when everyone else doesnt. u shld really know me by now. keras kepala ? no im not. i just cant say what i wanted to say out loud. i've replied everything u asked, in my head. by now, u shld know if i say it out loud, i will cry.
no im not mad .
im just disappointed.
Im disappointed things are different now. Im disappointed we dont talk like we used too. Im disappointed u didnt try ur best to make time for me like I did. Im disappointed Im no longer in ur emergency list. Im no longer important to u like I used too. Its a big disappointment .
Dont worry, dont u worry.
The awkward silence is because Im trying to accept the fact that things are different now. The silence is when Im talking to u eventhough u cant hear it. What I wrote today is the answer to ur question. "If things are ok like u said, then what's up with this silence" . This is why. This is the reason behind my silent.
But like I said, dont worry, dont u worry.
It is just me. Like what I always feel. We are 23 yrs old. 5 yrs wiser when we first met. Im a strong girl by now. Strong enough to respect ur answer. Strong enough to respect ur time and most of all strong enough to accept the fact that things between us no longer how it used to be.
