Incomplete

I know it didnt went well. Not as what I expected actually. I cant remember the exact date, but it feels like ages to me. Not talking to u is not in my to-do-list. I dont know how to react, I dont know what to say and what to do.

Everyday and every night Im waiting for ur call. Ok, I lied. I dont want u to call me. Just whatsapp me. I still cant talk to u. 

It hurts like hell going tru something like this. I cant talk to anyone. Its like broke up with ur partner, but 50% worst! Atleast when I broke up with someone, I can run to u. and I know no matter what, u will be there for me. u will comfort me with ur words, ur stupid annoying jokes. but when something like this happened, I cant run to anyone. and IF I do, they will be annoyed with what's on my mind. I will just keep on talking bout it again and again without doing anything. But with u, its different . I can talk about my exes 247 and u will listen to it without judging me. 

U are so cool when we met the other day. or maybe cold as well. How did u do that ? teach me. I really need to know. I need to be like u. coz I cant live like this anymore.

From scale 1 - 10 , how much do u hate me?